Don't ever take things for granted ;

i wish for some love.

sighs~ i'm so tired now. i wake at 3am today okae. and i'm so damn tired. today, my twintwin wake me up at 3am. thanks my dear. i wake up lerh, study physics all the way until 530am. then go bath and prepare for school. wa, feeling damn tired when i reach school. approached mr ong for some physics questions. i really hope i can do well. first time i wake up so early just to study lah. ): the paper was alright. but i didnt read the instructions so i ended up doing the whole paper. sighs~ but still okae lah. if can get above 35, i will be damn bloody happy lah. but its very difficult. my physics drop alot lerh. hais.

after the paper, its only around 930am. so me, nanny, erin, karmen and hweehan stay in school to eat. cause its much more cheaper lah. hahas. after eating, hweehan went home. then the rest of us went mac. its already around 11am. sit awhile, everyone was very restless. so we decide to go home. but in the end, me and erin ended up in nanny's house. LOL. at there so fun lah. we took alot of pics using nanny's web-cam. haas. over 60plus pics in just 15mins? we so pro right. some of the pics very lame derh lah. we stay there until 3plus. then jiu go home liao.

reach home, took a nap until 7plus. still very tired. gonna do some POA and revise before i go to bed again. MUST REN! a MUST to achieve good results. (: tomorrow would be english paper2 and POA paper2. for goodness sake. i die liao lah. english just aim for a pass. but my POA i cant aim for a pass. i'm aiming for A1, as usual. but is that possible? sighs~

today morning, i wake up at 3am to study right, you know what my mum say to me. she said everyday go and and PLAY, then homework never finish. oh, WTF?! when did i go out and play? I DIDNT! i went out and study with my friends. cause i know, if i stay at home and study, you will also be nagging. so must as well i stay outside and study. so what you want from me? TELL ME! i have been tolerating you for near to 16years. have you ever understand how i feel? you dont trust me, no point if i say so much. nothing will get into you anyway. i hate my mum. how? i dont wish to. i have tried to accept her. but what did i get in return? her negative thoughts, her negative words. she dont even understand me. sighs~ i'm her daughter, what wrong did i done to deserve all her nonsenses? i have enough, so enough that i have nothing more to say nor do. i just hope she dont bother me anymore. let me be who i am. my tears drop, my heart sink.

Walk away, Loved. 9:13:00 PM `